Episode 24 First Night
May 31, 2010 Comments Off
I lie on the red velvet couch inside the living room of the trailer. Mother smokes a Salem next to me on the couch. The Salem stinks of peanut butter.
“Mom, that smoke is making me sick.” Mother continues the puff.
“Can you put that out? I can’t sleep.”
“I’m almost done.”
“I hate that smell.”
Mother pulls the last of the smoke into her lungs.
“Good night, Mom.”
LATE FIRST NIGHT
I dream. In my dream, I see myself. I sit on a goat. I hold the goat’s horns and guide the goat. Me on top of a goat. Together we ride through a village in Tuscany. People in the village follow us with flutes and tambourines. They sing in the most beautiful voices I’ve ever heard.
I am the Messiah. The chosen one. Something touches me, invades me. My
goat stops. I kick the goat with the heel of my spur. The goat does not move.
Someone grabs one of my breasts from behind. I open my eyes. It’s dark. I see a shadow and smell a stink of body odor mixed with beer. A man. I feel him. He touches my body and caresses me. I open my eyes.
“What are you doing?”
“Huh? Oh, I thought you were asleep,” Lenney whispers.
I pull the blankets tight around my chest. Shit…
What the hell was that about? Why did Lenney do that? I’m scared.
I don’t know what that was about Beatie I don’t either.